My good friend Madame Meow tagged me. After a quick phone call to clear up exactly what tagging was, I am now, as I understand it, supposed to blog on the ten things I LOVE about myself. I feel slightly like a fifth grader sitting in front of a composition topic due tomorrow, staring longingly at my feet which ache to be shoe-less and outdoors. I tried to get out of the exercise by thinking, hmm, this is an empowering birth blog, what does this have to do with birth, but since I rarely write about myself I thought, hey why not? Perhaps people might be a bit curious about who I am and what better time to think about what you LOVE about yourself then when you are pregnant and perhaps not loving yourself enough. So, modesty aside, here goes....
1. I love that I am a WOMAN (or womyn as my friend Sazz would say, and yes Sazz, I am going to tag you (this does feel like a game of chase!). I didn't fully understand what it meant to be a woman until I gave birth/began attending births. After attending a long exhausting labor I often hear the husband remark, wow, I don't think I could have done that. And I think DAMN are we strong! It must be the incomprehension/fear of our awesome strength that drives men's desire to oppress women. Don't we tend to insult that which we really fear? Ah, there is nothing like the face of a woman in her labor groove; radiant, riding on top of an enormous, uncontrollable energy, and fully in the moment.
2. I love the passion with which I feel. Most of my emotions are visceral. It drives people crazy because if I eat a piece of pie it is the BEST piece of pie I have ever had. If I read a good nonfiction book, it is the best nonfiction book I have ever read. My in-laws recently lamented, "everything is always "the best" for you." It wasn't until recently that I realized that maybe I am better at living in the moment then I thought. I mean, at that particular moment, it really was the best.
3. I even love the fact that I am full of ups and downs, that I rarely hug the middle of the road. I am working in my yoga journey to learn how to better hug into the mid-line (an important alignment principal of Anusara yoga), and with this I expect to find greater balance in my life, but I also love that I feel passionately about things.
4. I love the fact that I have found a way to open up to the spirit and take a yoga pose deeper then I've ever taken it before. I did that this again last weekend in my Anusara Immersion workshop. I do not have a super-flexible spine by nature but I've been working for several years to create more space in my pelvis so that I can get deeper back-bends. And then when I stop trying to control and just ride the spirit, WOW! Now if only I can learn how to always remain open to the spirit.
5. I love the fact that I am in really good shape. It is all yoga. (Well maybe a tiny bit nursing mom. Who would've guessed it takes that much work to make milk!) I was a field hockey player, swam, and ran in high school but I don't think I was ever as toned as I am now, and this is after two kids! I certainly don't do yoga for the yoga butt but I will admit, it is a welcomed bonus!
6. I love my intuition. It has rarely failed me. I can sense when it is ok to trust and when I need to be wary of something/someone, though I won't know exactly why. And I love the palpable connection between people from which that intuition flows. We are all one.
7. I love that I have an enormous amount of energy. My energy is the biblical well that never ran dry. While my abundance of energy can be a curse as well as a blessing (I work very hard to be content with stillness) I love the fact that I can go to the beach with the kids, cook a fancy dinner for a friend, schedule a prenatal, and still have the energy to get my blog done before bed.
8. I love my blue eyes and the fact that they can look almost Lapis Lazuli in color when I am wearing a deep blue.
9. I love my laugh, I love to laugh. It has been suspected that it is forced but I protest against that slandering claim. It is full, loud, joyous, and without containment.
10. I love that I can still be a kid. When I go to a pool that has water slides and someone can watch the kids, I will go down them again, and again, and again, each time shouting with glee, thrilled to my viscus with raw joy.
Phew, I'm done! Ok, I am going to tag Sazz, VBAC Adventure, LaborTrials and Blueberry Baby. I think we should all spend time thinking about why we love ourself and I have a sneaking suspicion we don't always think about this as much as we should. Have fun!